portraits

2009

 
 
acrylic,house paints and colored pencil on 11x14 watercolor paper
 
By way of an explanation for this series of portraits,let me step back a bit first.About 20 years ago,a woman that I knew asked me a simple question,"why don't you ever just create something right out of your head?".What she was referring to was the vast photographic files that I kept to use as reference material for whatever ideas did come bubbling to the surface.Whether it was a painting or a cartoon,I had to find just the right reference material to fit the idea that existed in my mind's eye.I hadn't yet learned to trust my instincts and just go for it,which I actually did about a year later.At that time I had hit a brick wall creatively and just couldn't work.I had gotten so bogged down by all of the things that I had learned about painting in college that the blank canvas stopped me dead in my tracks.All of the fun had gone out of it completely.Another friend suggested that I just let all of that go and just paint.What??Let it go??Form,color,content,gesture,ART HISTORY?!!Blasphemy....but then,the truth of what he was sayng hit me like a runaway train and I spent the next year breaking every rule that I was taught,including tossing aside that huge photo reference file,creating some of the worst art of my life and loving every damned minute of it.At the end of that tunnel I found my way back to trusting my own instincts and actually started having fun painting again.I'm not one of those 'artiste' types who needs to paint to excorcise some demons or get the poison out,that's a load of horseshit as far as I'm concerned.I know that it's definitely therapeutic for many artists out there,myself included especially when I am in the midst of throwing paint around the studio like a madman possessed,and I certainly don't wish to lessen the seriousness of their art by saying this.I've always just wanted to create something that will engage the viewer,maybe make them think a little bit and hopefully just connect with it on whatever level they're comfortable with.So for the better part of the last twenty years the only time that I have used any type of photographic reference material has been for tattooing,caricatures and the occasional odd t-shirt design.Otherwise I just let the paint fly and go with what I find there.Well,jump to the full present now and I've recently started working on a series of pieces for Boneyard,a show paying homage to a place near and dear to my heart as I have been going there since I was a child,the Oak Grove Cemetery in Fall River,Ma.I decided to base a series on some photos I've taken of the place.Rather than just do some landscapes per se I decided to flip the images upside down and approach them with the same mad action painting that starts all of my other current work.The simple act of flipping the image upside down changes my connection to these familiar images in such a way that I can see them abstractly.Once they are done,I flip them right side up and go from there.(you'll be able to see more of that series once the show is up,I will not be posting any of them before then).I've been wanting to try and do some portraits for a while but my method of working has kept that from happening.How am I supposed to do a portrait if I don't ever paint from life?!Well,starting the Boneyard series gave me the key that I needed to open that door.I've begun working with photos again,turned upside down so as not to get distracted by familiarity with my subjects.I'll leave it at that for now and you can decide for yourself just how I am doing with this.Feel free to contact me with any feedback.Thanks.

 

 

caitlyn

 
 

andrea

 
 

mac

 
 

me and big doug

 
 

self portrait

 
 

dad

 
 

nana

 
 

self portrait with vera

 
 
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